Happenings in the Wind
It is amazing, absolutely amazing. I read alot of philosophy, English Literature, American Literature, and not enough of the Bible. I crave God's Word. In fact, I sometimes wake up with a dull ache in the heart, characterized by a malnutrition of God's written Word. Instead of eating a health dose of God's Word, I mumble a few words of prayer and head off to class. About 10 AM I start praying a bit more as I sit in class and walk around, but I never get the chance to really sit and soak up God's Word.
"That's ok," God says, "Check this out Dave."
In class I hear His truth come out through godless wisdom, walking down the hall I read from the expressionless, complacent, empty faces that it is He that truely satisfies, and in the conversations taken up with fellow Believers I am ministered to.
I sometimes avoid God. Not because I am angry at Him or am wronged, but because my depravity wrestles with the pride that haunts every soul alive. Out of self relience or ignorance I go to class, work, church, and coffeeshops without spending quality time with Him.
It is like being in a relationship where the other person is drop-dead cool and loving and you are the jerko of all jerk people. It is like saying, "I will be faithful to you, love you, and cherish you all my days" and then committing rampent adultry with many people. Oh, but the confession doesn't hold. The next day the cycle starts again. Lust, greed, anger, false gods, worshiping material and vain things, bitterness, pride, grace-less-ness, and so forth.
Basically, If I was God dealing with myself, I would probably say "Forget it, you claim to love me but really don't. Go and enjoy the emptiness, and when you have gorged yourself at last, then you shall miss me."
Sometimes it is like that. Sometimes I feel very alone. Other times, I feel such an amazing grace that my eyes water and I cannot speak.
Yeah we are rampent adulterers with the empty bodies of this world, but our God is the infinitely graceful and loving King that pardoned all sins and transgressions and calls us blessed.
Beware of His justice and the consequences of what you do. Often in the moment of pride or temptation the sin looks so much better than God. It never is or will be. It is like ashes in the mouth, a disgracefully bitter taste that robs all joy. do not tread upon His grace, but rather repent and seek Him with your whole heart.
Yeah, I see His hand. I see the dead coming to life with the seasons, the beauty found in the eyes of the opposite gender, the wisdom that comes from the most unlikely place, and the crafting of an awakening of this generation.
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The past two weeks have been amazing. There are ripples of unity and revival emerging on the campus of KU. Student ministry groups are now meeting for prayer on campus twice a week. A group of 175 students (one of which is me) is headed to New Orleans over spring break to help with the Katrina disaster clean-up and rebuilding.
I am truely stoked.
It has been too long that the ministries have been captivated in the "our ministry" game. The vision has been cast to see students and leaders united for the Glory of God.
These are exciting and terrible times. The spiritual oppression is rising, even in my life, and darkness resists.
Bring it on Jesus, bring it on...
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I think that many males from the age 17-25 are searching for security in their masculinity. This insecurity often manifests itself in needing to be one of the guys and to be the type of guy that a girl wants. This insecurity is primarily satisfied in a girls head on the shoulder and a brother patting the back.
I think that many females of the same age are searching for security too. Their insecurity is amplified by the cruel lashings of society says they should look, act, and be. To my understanding, from conversations and observation, it is one of the chief desires of a girl to be beautiful and cherished as beautiful. Their insecurity isn't satisfied in girsl as much as it is in guys. Having a guy nearby helps quenck that insecurity.
Girls are insecure.
Guys are insecure.
We all have insecurities.
Jesus is the Man of all people.
He is perfect.
We are not.
Therefore, we should find our security in Christ since He doesn't break hearts or laugh at our embarassments (except the ones that are ok to laugh at. Come on, you would laugh to in a loving sort of way.)
Ok, that is enough. Spring Break, Where art thou?!?!
D <><
"That's ok," God says, "Check this out Dave."
In class I hear His truth come out through godless wisdom, walking down the hall I read from the expressionless, complacent, empty faces that it is He that truely satisfies, and in the conversations taken up with fellow Believers I am ministered to.
I sometimes avoid God. Not because I am angry at Him or am wronged, but because my depravity wrestles with the pride that haunts every soul alive. Out of self relience or ignorance I go to class, work, church, and coffeeshops without spending quality time with Him.
It is like being in a relationship where the other person is drop-dead cool and loving and you are the jerko of all jerk people. It is like saying, "I will be faithful to you, love you, and cherish you all my days" and then committing rampent adultry with many people. Oh, but the confession doesn't hold. The next day the cycle starts again. Lust, greed, anger, false gods, worshiping material and vain things, bitterness, pride, grace-less-ness, and so forth.
Basically, If I was God dealing with myself, I would probably say "Forget it, you claim to love me but really don't. Go and enjoy the emptiness, and when you have gorged yourself at last, then you shall miss me."
Sometimes it is like that. Sometimes I feel very alone. Other times, I feel such an amazing grace that my eyes water and I cannot speak.
Yeah we are rampent adulterers with the empty bodies of this world, but our God is the infinitely graceful and loving King that pardoned all sins and transgressions and calls us blessed.
Beware of His justice and the consequences of what you do. Often in the moment of pride or temptation the sin looks so much better than God. It never is or will be. It is like ashes in the mouth, a disgracefully bitter taste that robs all joy. do not tread upon His grace, but rather repent and seek Him with your whole heart.
Yeah, I see His hand. I see the dead coming to life with the seasons, the beauty found in the eyes of the opposite gender, the wisdom that comes from the most unlikely place, and the crafting of an awakening of this generation.
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The past two weeks have been amazing. There are ripples of unity and revival emerging on the campus of KU. Student ministry groups are now meeting for prayer on campus twice a week. A group of 175 students (one of which is me) is headed to New Orleans over spring break to help with the Katrina disaster clean-up and rebuilding.
I am truely stoked.
It has been too long that the ministries have been captivated in the "our ministry" game. The vision has been cast to see students and leaders united for the Glory of God.
These are exciting and terrible times. The spiritual oppression is rising, even in my life, and darkness resists.
Bring it on Jesus, bring it on...
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I think that many males from the age 17-25 are searching for security in their masculinity. This insecurity often manifests itself in needing to be one of the guys and to be the type of guy that a girl wants. This insecurity is primarily satisfied in a girls head on the shoulder and a brother patting the back.
I think that many females of the same age are searching for security too. Their insecurity is amplified by the cruel lashings of society says they should look, act, and be. To my understanding, from conversations and observation, it is one of the chief desires of a girl to be beautiful and cherished as beautiful. Their insecurity isn't satisfied in girsl as much as it is in guys. Having a guy nearby helps quenck that insecurity.
Girls are insecure.
Guys are insecure.
We all have insecurities.
Jesus is the Man of all people.
He is perfect.
We are not.
Therefore, we should find our security in Christ since He doesn't break hearts or laugh at our embarassments (except the ones that are ok to laugh at. Come on, you would laugh to in a loving sort of way.)
Ok, that is enough. Spring Break, Where art thou?!?!
D <><
posted by David B at 9:21 PM
